My Car Has Been Running Since the Summer and So Have I

I have this bad habit of keeping my car running while I’m not in it

and I don’t know if it’s so it’ll stay warm on a cold day

Kind of the same way he did in the winter

Or if it’s so I’ll always have an escape plan,

Kind of like the one I had in the spring

It just keeps filling up my garage with toxins

Keeps the fumes coming in

but I keep my eyes shut so I can pretend I don’t notice

Like how we knew we were in danger but we kept the keys in the car, kept the door shut, turned the lights off so we didn’t notice each other

I have this bad habit of keeping my car running while I’m not in it

and I don’t know if it’s because I can’t decide if I want to leave yet or not

I’ve never been very good with timing

Maybe that’s why I left in the middle of everything

Why I crumbled to the ground, took my foot off the brake and rolled right into the wall

I never know when to put it in park

When it’s too soon to tell if I wanna stay

– An excerpt from a book I’ll never write


So Little Will Power and So Little Time

So, I am coming at you guys at 10pm on the Wednesday two weeks after I promised an every Wednesday schedule. School had just started back up and AP Physics is taking some serious energy out of me BUT I am here nonetheless for a little vegan update! It’s been a little over two weeks since I officially went vegan for what, the 7th time, and it’s been so EASY for me for some reason. Like, I forget that I’m vegan now so I just kinda go with the flow and it’s not a whole lot of effort outside of figuring out what I want for lunch that week or dinner than night. Everything in my house is either Vegan or Paleo, so basically I can eat anything that isn’t a boiled egg or a chicken breast, which is really convenient. I also don’t miss any cheese or anything like I usually do because I know it’ll make me sick and I feel so much better without eating junk like that. I still eat sugar in stuff, but I have been trying to limit that or use coconut sugar in place. I am also a lot more ingredient-conscious and I try my best to stay away from anything with a ton of crap in it or a lot of chemicals. I have been photo-logging my body progress and I can already tell that I have come a little way even just in 10 or 12 days which is fantastic. Once I get into months, I’ll try and post some pictures of that progress. I have a recipe post in my drafts that I will be posting soon, and I am trying out 2 new recipes for my birthday next Thursday, so expect those soon! I also discovered that somehow Wednesdays are always super busy even though I get out of school early SO I will be moving my days to Saturday! I am going to try and post my Seven Layer Dip this upcoming Saturday and then go from there. I hope you guys will work with me with my humble beginnings and stick around to see it get organized. Watch for a post in the next few days – peace out dudes.


Long time no see, friends. My vegan journey begins once again in the new year. I know what most people are thinking, “oh god, here she goes again”. BUT HEAR ME OUT: I have not only cleaned out my pantry (along with my parents who are going back on the Whole30 diet), but I have got my thinking on the right path again. I have finally changed my mindset from myself to the animals. In the past, I have gone vegan with all the right intentions but failed after 2 months or 2 weeks because I would say to myself – “I want cheese” or “want this pizza”. This was the total wrong way to go about things. It’s not me who really matters (which sounds bad), but it’s the countless animals who are affected by my negligence and poor choice to continue to eat dairy and eggs. Just because it tastes good doesn’t mean I should eat it, doesn’t mean I should put myself first. I could always put the fact that I was eating something with milk or eggs in it out of my mind because I hadn’t had just plain eggs or a glass of milk in years. It wasn’t until I was eating a Hershey’s bar sometime before Christmas that I realized what I was doing. The brown wrapper had a little circle on one of the corners reading “Made with REAL cow’s milk” with a happy picture of a cow on it. I kind of did one of those double checks because I wasn’t sure what I had just read. It never really connected in my brain that I was still indirectly putting dairy into my body even if I didn’t explicitly drink a glass of milk. I know that makes me sound really stupid, but something clicked that day, and I knew I had to change.

So, starting officially yesterday – January 2, 2017 – I am Vegan for GOOD. I have an accountability partner (one of my lovely friends @zionsmithh on twitter, check her out) and I have a plan. To keep myself in check and sharing my story, I have decided to really keep up with my blog and post weekly. Beginning Wednesday, January 11, I will post updates, recipes, reviews, stories, events or videos that I find every Wednesday. Hopefully everyone will enjoy my posts and they will be helpful to those trying this journey with me. In addition to my weekly posts, I will do my regular writing and photography posts as well on my random days. So, I encourage everyone to #GoVegan2017. Wish me luck!!!

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The Illustrated Man: A Continuation

“The Illustrated Man” by Rad Bradbury, a continuation of the prologue written by yours truly for a Graphic Design/Advanced Composition project, enjoy 🙂

The first Illustration quivered and came to life, swaying as if the wind itself could move the ink. Swirls of orange and yellow peeked out above the dizzy of black clouds. A girl emerged from the emptiness, warm brown hands sprouting from tree bark, half of her thick, red hair cascading down tanned shoulders and the other half piled high on top of her head, sad eyes like drops of water and hands carved out of leaves. She had jewelry like vines and clothes weaved from pieces of tender fruit. She peeked her head above the water she knew so well, fish circling her like a necklace, salty water dripping down her smooth skin. The fire behind her illuminated her gentle curves and lit up the sky, sparks sprinkling down and hitting her ocean like rain. She ducked under the water and swam up to the pier, gripping the rotting wood with small hands. The night was ablaze, red hot with anger. She leapt up onto the pier, shaking off tangled seaweed from her legs as she ran alongside her winged brother who owned the skies that had been destroyed just as her oceans had. Water spilled out of her open mouth, leaving salty residue on her teeth and tongue. As she ran, or more accurately stumbled, she spit up more, grains of gritty salt and kicked-up dirt finally taking its toll on her small frame and young lungs. Mother Nature couldn’t protect her own kin from the dirty air and splitting ground. The girl tripped, brown smudges dirtying her golden skin, hair twisted into unfixable knots, and eyes as full of water as her ocean. Laid out on the dark ground, fire closing in on her already fiery hair. Mother Nature tried to apologize, but she only shook the Earth more. Her daughter’s soft features were hardened, water droplet eyes closed in fear, and tree bark hands red with blood. Mad laughter escaped from the Earth, the noise echoing off her seven seas and the reverb crushing the girl under its weight. Father Time took a hold of the ocean and the sky, fighting against his clock to escape the sand in his timer and the sand being kicked up from a dying Earth. There is only so much time to run away before you reach the edge of the sky, before the ocean becomes too deep, before Mother Nature loses hope for a better tomorrow. This is the first day of The End. The Earth finally fought back, and not even she was ready.

Alice Through the Looking Glass

Hi Pals! It’s been a while, but it’s summer now and free time is running wild over here. Just recently, on opening night, I went to go see Alice Through the Looking Glass. First off, let. me. tell. you. IT WAS AMAZING. I’m talking special effects done better than great, actors and actresses really giving it their all; I could go on for days about it. The bottom line is: Tim Burton and his crew are geniuses. Anyway, getting to the point, Urban Decay Cosmetics collaborated with Disney and released a new palette and a huge line of lipsticks especially for the movie release. And guess who could not be more excited? (It’s me) So naturally, being a huge Alice in Wonderland fan, caved and paid waaayyy too much money for the 20 eyeshadow palette and it was worth every single penny. This is why I’m writing this…to tell you like 4 people how great these colors are and also how terrible I am at makeup, but that’s beside the point. Without further ado, I present to you: Alice Through the Looking Glass.

Would ya look at that? Feast your eyes on just the mere packaging of this wonder. I really am trying to contain my hype over this palette because you guys have yet to see the best part (although to be fair, it’s all the best part)

Just LOOK at these COLORS!!! Each column fits with a different character (from left to right): Alice, Mad Hatter, Mirana (White Queen), Iracebeth (Queen of Hearts), and Time. Each one has cute little names to go along with the colors, the person, and the story. There are so many glittery shades and so many bright, vibrant shades that there is a color for everyone and for every look from colorful, smokey, or natural.

I just wanted to share with everyone my makeup look that I created today with a bunch of the bright colors from the collection and also a few other products that I’ll mention. I hope you’re as excited as I am….

THIS IS IT! It is very bright and has tons of colors in it, so I would recommend it for special wears like to a parade or concert or festival obviously, and not just for your average day out shopping. But aside from the impracticality, I really just did it like this to show the huge range of colors spanning across the rainbow (of course, I had to add colored brows, glitter, and soon to be seen colored lips, too).

The Process:

1. I first highlighted the middle of my eye to give the appearance of a bigger and brighter eyelid using the shade “Royal Flush” 

2. In my inner corner, I patted “Paradox” in and then faded it into the center highlight and lightly blended

3. Taking “Salazen Grum” on a flat brush, I lightly put it underneath my eye on the half closest to my nose

4. Then, on a fluffy brush, I blended “Cake” into my crease only on top of where I put “Paradox” in step 2

5. On the outer corner of my eye, I used Colourpop’s “Taco” (Blue) as my base before blending “Metamorphosis” on top of it

6. Next, I blended the blue out with a bright dark green, “Hatter” in the crease. I also put this green on a thin smudge brush and put it all along my lash line. 

7. To finish off the bright colors, I used a thin angled brush to add some more shadow to the bottom lash line with “Cake” again. 

8. The mess of colors above my crease was looking rough, so I used “Royal Flush” again to highlight my brow bone, pull together the colors, and soften any harsh lines and blend the shades together nicely. 

Afterwards, I added NYX’s colored mascara in “Mint Julep” to my brows to give them a blue-green finish, and then put NYX’s body and face glitter in “Silver” above my brow to give it a glitter highlight. My lips were a light and intense purple, also from NYX, the Liquid Suede  Cream Lipstick in the color “Sway”.

THIS WAS THE FINAL LOOK!! Exciting, I know. These colors are fabulous and this palette legit completes me. While I’m not chill enough to wear the brows, lips, and eyes together out in public, it sure is fun to play around with.

So, that my friends, was Alice Through the Looking Glass. I hope you guys enjoyed that long ramble and half tutorial. See ya tomorrow! 🙂


Well…This is Happening (Part 2)

HI!!!! Long time no see my friends. So, guess what I did again…for the fifth time…? If you guessed go vegan, you’re right!!!! It’s been a little under a week and I am going strong. No real desires to have dairy or eggs or anything other than strawberries and tortilla chips really. This time is the time I actually stick with it (honestly I say this now but watch in a few days…..). Last night I made vegan popcorn tofu- like popcorn chicken- and it was honestly all seven layers of hell packed into 45 minutes. I had to fry them in a skillet with avocado oil because I am cheap and also don’t know how to cook so I winged it. I burnt myself approximately 11 times and ending up wearing and three oven mitts, don’t ask me how. I also made vegan homemade chocolate crunch bars and they’re a) super delicious and b) soooo easy to make. All I did was buy a huge bag of chocolate chips from Costco, melt them, added some rice crisp cereal to the mix, and put it in a pan in the fridge. Benefits of eating it cold: it is lowkey super hard to break so you eat less at once unless you wanna saw at it with a butter knife for 15 minutes. ANYWHO that’s how my night went, watch out for some new pictures and poems in the next couple days!! Alright, more to come later on my vegan adventure ft. new recipes 🙂


Well, attempt number 4 has failed due to my deep-rooted love of cheese, cheese, and also lots of cheese. So it lasted approximately two meals before I devoured pizza and frozen yogurt with a giant smile on my face. That’s really all I have to say before I am shamed, but hey….maybe one day I’ll have the will to like ~actually~  care about my health. Okay, my sour gummy worms and I are out for now.

So…Vegan is Happening (Also Hello I’m New Here)

Well, as of next Monday I will officially be a vegan for the 4th time. The past three times lasted two months, then 1 day, and then I thought about being vegan and decided against it. So that totally counts….Anywhooo it’s happening for real for real this time like I’m going all out. This means giving up cheese dip that makes up at least 50% of my body and the world’s greatest chocolate nut clusters: Nutxactly from Costco. I pretty much just wanted to have a post to make it look like I am a legit blogger instead of a 16 year old with a computer and some avocados BUT HEY there’s a first time for everything so I guess I should introduce myself: My name is Cara (short for Caroline) and since you already know my age and diet I guess I’ll just say that most of what I post are going to be pointless spiels about how big and crazy the universe is and maybe some cool photographs I take. I’d like to welcome you to a life in the day of Cara (I know that’s not the real saying but just bare with me here folks) !!!!