big lights will inspire you

hi friends! I know it’s been a hot minute since ive posted anything, but I went to New York City babyyyy for spring break and I have a LOT to say!!!! (no big surprise) so I want to first say that i’m back to being vegan after a short uhh 7 month break! after exploring new york for the second year in a row and eating LOADS of delicious veggie burgers and asian salads and tofu and vegan cookies and ice cream I’ve decided that the only one holding me back from being vegan is myself. there are so so so many options out there for me, I just have to try. after getting into buddhism as well, I realized that putting the well-being of all earthly creatures first and being ethical towards all living beings is first and foremost. this beautiful city and all of the people within it inspired me to also get back into french and I downloaded duolingo and have been reteaching myself through the practices and games! I love the language and I want to eventually be conversationally fluent in it. hearing all of the families who spoke a different language than I do was so interesting to listen to and observe. this time in the big city, I took a step away from my camera and allowed myself to really take in the city without a lens blocking me from everything. It felt to wonderful to really see and hear the sounds of the city and it’s people. I of course still took loads of pictures of all the art around town, but I made sure not to put that first above truly experiencing each street and all of the people. overall, it was a fabulous, snowy trip that really made me think about what I want to put first in my future. big lights really do inspire you.


july fourth: “it could never happen to me”

On July 4th, 2017, something I never thought would ever happen, DID. I had a really awful skateboarding accident resulting in a traumatic brain injury.  It took everything in me to recover to where I am now, relearning to walk, regaining my voice, my strength, and my intelligence & now, 3 surgeries, 2 infections, 2 hospitals, and 3 months later, I wrote a poem about what it was like and how it affected my life:

have you ever seen the blood drain from someone’s face

their smile fade so quickly it scares you

have you felt the chills of a hospital room mingling with the chills of infection for months on end

it’s like when you’ve grown accustom to a certain song on the radio & now you don’t even notice it playing anymore

have you heard the beeps of a heart monitor not so steady

the shrill screams down the hall?

it’s amazing how much you can love ordinary after you don’t have it

how much you want to yell when you have no voice

you start counting your days in dad lessons, in TV shows finished, in missed opportunities

and counting 

how many tears that have fallen from great heights

or 5 feet above the ground,

they hit hard either way

new york on film

hello friends!

I know this is so super late because I visited new york city in April & it’s August BUT art takes time and work okay. So yeah I took like 20 clips that I recorded on my Nikon D3100 and put them all together on Adobe Premiere Pro CC 2015 in the order they fit best with the stop and go (which I planned ahead of time) and lemme tell you, MAN it took so much work to get the green and red lights & timing the transition from the red hand to the walking man. but it ended up pretty decent!!! I added some smooth, classic Lana in the background to combine my 2 favorite things BUT SO YEAH HERE IS NEW YORK ON FILM: my first film project on the best city 🙂

It won’t let me just upload the video so here is the link! More city photos to follow ❤

Yes, More Flowers

Over the month of December, I planted some tulip bulbs with high hopes that they’d bloom this Spring – AND THEY DID!! So naturally, I had to take a ton of pictures of them because they are my pride and joy, and will remain so until they sadly die. OK so here are a bunch of photos of some pretty tulips and a few random flowers that I saw in my yard & while in Athens for prom – ENJOY!

This was my very 1st bloom 🙂
Guys, the bugs…were everywhere 
This lil guy was falling apart but ended up being a perfect op
Pink and green look so pretty together 🙂
That lighting! is to die for!
My beautiful purple tulip just beginning to bloom
G I R L this orange one is flat out GORGEOUS!
This was in Athens 🙂
A lost soldier in my back yard and the yellow was so super pretty