NYC/BOSTON LOOKBOOK. 

It’s been approximately 2 weeks since I got back from my trip & have I posted my promised lookbook? Nope! But here I am NOW so all is well. Alright I’m not gonna start rambling because there isn’t much to say other than the mirror I had in New York had like weird lines and stuff all through it, but it was also freaking huge so like….I’ll live somehow. ALRIGHT, HERE WE GO

Day 1: NYC

This is the outfit I wore on the plane and during our 1st day in New York! To go through everything, it was:

  •  A pair of matte chelsea style rain boots from Target
  • Red crew socks from TJmaxx
  • Ripped black jeans from Charlotte Russe 
  • Red & grey plaid tights from DSW
  • A white tshirt with red embroidery from Forever 21
  • A basic black cardigan 
  • A black beanie with a lil poof from JCPenny

I ended up with a black rain jacket on too because it was super super cold and rainy, but I looked cute touring Parsons The New School of Design (which was amazing!!!) & New York Film Academy, eating tons of food, getting some goood chinese food, and exploring the city. The tights underneath were a nice detail and they also kept me super super warm the whole day. 

Day 2: NYC

This was the outfit I wore on out “free day” of sorta since we had no college visits and it was a lot warmer / wasn’t raining so I could wear something a little less smothering:

  • Navy Converse
  • The same black ripped jeans from Charlotte Russe
  • A royal blue tank top turtle neck from Forever 21 
  • A huge cream cardigan originally from Chapps but bought at the thrift store 

I also threw on my big navy coat for some extra protection from the wind because it was intense man somehow even when we were inside or in subway stations? Worth it though. We went the the Highline and Chelsea Market, ate lunch & went to Strand Bookstore, and got to some wonderful dinner reservations.

Day 3: NYC

The last photo was my base outfit, but it was literally like 30 degrees out with a 10 degree wind chill & it was also pouring down rain, so I threw on every article of clothing I could find and ended up with: 

  • Dark wash, highwasited jeans from H&M (actually bought on Day 2!)
  • A b&w striped ribbed turtle neck from Forever 21 
  • My black rainboots from Target
  • The long, cream cardigan from the thrift store 
  • My black rain coat
  • A huge, pink-ish scarf from who knows where 
  • My black JCP beanie 

It was also just my luck that my jeans turned my legs, from my hips to my ankles, totally blue because they were unwashed and it was raining. Aside from that, this outfit was warm enough to get me through a Pratt tour & lunch in Brooklyn, a visit to Central Park and the Alice in Wonderland statue, dinner, and Times Square at night. 

Day 4: Boston

This had to be my favorite outfit, it was so cozy and so warm with my sweater & it felt amazing to be out of jeans finally and into some looser pants: 

  • Navy Converse
  • White crew socks from TJmaxx
  • Plaid pants from the thrift store 
  • Navy sweater from H&M
  • Cream cardigan 
  • Navy Bandana 
  • Tan-ish type of beanie from Target (I think??) 

This is what I wore on the bus from New York to Boston, the struggle of getting from the bus stop / airport to our apartment in the East, and getting back to tour Emerson (which was FABULOUS!!!), eat a terrible lunch of noodles and soggy cabbage, and go to Dinner at an amazing Italian place. 

Day 5: Last Day

This was the base of my outfit (of course, ended up with a coat & gloves on), but these shoes were the most comfortable ones of the trip & it was good because we did walk a lot (as we had been doing). 

  • White hightops from Target
  • Lighwash jeans from H&M 
  • Black and white striped shirt from H&M

Day 5 consisted of a visit to the ICA (Institute of Contemporary Art) in Seaport, lunch at the best restaurant for the 3rd time!!!! & walking around Boston Commons before heading to the airport for 4 hours while our flight got delayed. Eventually, we made it home at about 2am, and it was all worth it. 

SO THAT’S ALL FOLKS! I hope that lived up to your expectations minus the poor quality, the lack of creativity due to the weather, and the long wait. I’ll be editing more photos (and a video) from the trip very soon & also be posting a food journey through the 2 cities to give some recommendations. Thanks for reading that super long lookbook from a truly wonderful trip, peace out guys 🙂

panic! at the disco: how brendon urie & co. multihandedly (?) saved my life

WEDNESDAY APRIL 12: THE DAY THAT FOREVER CHANGED MY LIFE AND WAS/IS THE BEST NIGHT OF 2017. The Panic! at the Disco Death of a Bachelor tour concert was SOSOSOSOSOOOO GOOD GUYS. But like, it’s chill no big deal or anything I just made this video collage that features my screaming so loud my voice hurt but it’s whatever! Saint Motel and Misterwives opened up, both were amazing! I didn’t know either were opening and I had only listened to like a song of Saint Motel, but they ended up being so good and then MISTERWIVES!!!! I love them so much and when the lead singer came bopping out in her pom pom shorts and fur jacket I started freaking ouuuttt and they did such a good job. They also performed 2 songs off of their next unreleased album and they were so hype so I’m so excited to listen to it when it’s released. Okay onto Panic!, so it was Brendon’s birthday so there’s a clip of everyone surprising him and singing happy birthday and he got so happy :’) He also played the ACOUSTIC VERSION OF THIS IS GOSPEL?!??$ It was breathtaking. Oh, and so these girls handed out all these bright colored hearts to different sections of the crowd for us to hold in front of our flashlights during Girls/Girls/Boys (which was ammaazzzinnnggg) & holy cow! He just like stopped and freaked out because he loved it so much and went on this whole long speech about the revolution and how love trumps hate and how we were making a real impact in the world and on him and I legit almost teared up. ​There were so many times where he would be goofy and like throw his head back in laughter or start goofing around and it was SO CUTE wow they just did such an amazing job and it was wholeheartedly the best concert I’ve ever been to (tøp, you’re still up there boys).  I attached the video I made and it’s about 4 and a half minutes long and worth every second because I shoved so many songs and great moments in & it still doesn’t do this beautiful man and his beautiful band and his personality and looks justice but! that’s okay 🙂 I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT AS MUCH AS I DID!!!!! – the end of the first clip is so funny with his lil “yeaaah” – OK I’M DONE

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Yes, More Flowers

Over the month of December, I planted some tulip bulbs with high hopes that they’d bloom this Spring – AND THEY DID!! So naturally, I had to take a ton of pictures of them because they are my pride and joy, and will remain so until they sadly die. OK so here are a bunch of photos of some pretty tulips and a few random flowers that I saw in my yard & while in Athens for prom – ENJOY!

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This was my very 1st bloom 🙂
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Guys, the bugs…were everywhere 
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This lil guy was falling apart but ended up being a perfect op
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Pink and green look so pretty together 🙂
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That lighting! is to die for!
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My beautiful purple tulip just beginning to bloom
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G I R L this orange one is flat out GORGEOUS!
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This was in Athens 🙂
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A lost soldier in my back yard and the yellow was so super pretty

 

 

raindrops and goodbyes can sound the same sometimes

flowers need more than water to grow

maybe that’s why I run away at the sight of them blooming

I can’t even remember to water them once a day

how can I sustain them for years?

 

she says it’s okay that she gets thirsty sometimes

she’ll always find a way to get water

always grow towards the light

soak in the dirt

spread roots wherever she walks

 

I try to fill her up anyway

but I’m just too small, too empty to reach the top

 

she has leaves blended into pine straw legs

wet on the surface from dew

watering can strands of hair

spilling over the edge of flower pot shoulders

 

the soil gets heavy sometimes

atlas herself can’t bear the weight enough to shrug

 

sometimes she’s forced down on all fours

handprints stuck in muddy ground

cloth snagged on tree bark

protruding from branching arms

 

my name is carved in her wooden oaks

a heart encapsulates initials

but they are not ours

 

so I tell her the tale of how resilient she is

how her stem always manages to sprout

even after it’s stepped on

even after it’s ripped off

torn up & spit out

 

the petals she calls home float off one by one

begging me to love her 

not

 

I tell her

I’m allergic to her pollen

that way I don’t have to tell her that I was the one who ripped out her frail beginnings

the one who tried to grow her in my hands

fingers cupped around the subtle curve of her sepal

 

I push her away gently, fingertips skimming polka-dot goosebumps

raised like braille on the soft petals of a daisy

 

I am not strong enough to say goodbye

not strong enough to see the bugs feasting on her leaves until she’s nothing but crumbs

too small to leave a trail back towards home

 

I see hues of pink and orange fall to the ground

where a crushed green stem meets the earth

they claim they have never met before

that they’re strangers

but they know each other far too well

 

she’s not very resilient anymore

but I am not strong enough to tell her

– I blame myself for your flowers dying

It’s My Anniversary!

GUYS!!!! So, today marks 4 WHOLE YEARS of being vegetarian! In early 2013, I decided to stop eating meat one night at dinner. I had wanted to go vegetarian for a little while, and on March 2 (yesterday but 4 years ago), I ate my last piece of chicken, grossed out by the blood and bones on my plate and in my hands. I set it down, and that was the last of it and now, here we are, on March 3rd of 2017, meat free for 4 long, happy years. Yesterday was also the official 2 months mark of being vegan, but we’re gonna celebrate today and pretend that today’s the 2-month mark so that’s super dope for me! It’s the longest I’ve kept with it (a month & a half was my previous record) so I’m pretty proud of myself for that one tbh. So yeah! That’s all for now, I just needed to share my milestone with everybody and expect a recipe and another poem sometime soon!!!

the sicker i get, the closer i get to pressing send

cut.

my medicine finally started working
although I think she
may have been the cure and
now it’s my birthday and she’s cutting out paper snowflakes
because we never got around to it at christmas
we were too busy
falling in love

copy.

my headaches are coming back
they always do and
now somehow I’m sitting in a denny’s parking lot
throwing up and
my lips try to form words around the silhouette of her hands and
she copies me and
our mouths
meet.

paste.

my good days are still bad and now
all I can see is the back of
her
hair is longer than the last time I saw
her
toothpaste is leaving mint flavored foam on her upper lip
I go to wipe it off but she
is just out of reach

 

My Car Has Been Running Since the Summer and So Have I

I have this bad habit of keeping my car running while I’m not in it

and I don’t know if it’s so it’ll stay warm on a cold day

Kind of the same way he did in the winter

Or if it’s so I’ll always have an escape plan,

Kind of like the one I had in the spring

It just keeps filling up my garage with toxins

Keeps the fumes coming in

but I keep my eyes shut so I can pretend I don’t notice

Like how we knew we were in danger but we kept the keys in the car, kept the door shut, turned the lights off so we didn’t notice each other

I have this bad habit of keeping my car running while I’m not in it

and I don’t know if it’s because I can’t decide if I want to leave yet or not

I’ve never been very good with timing

Maybe that’s why I left in the middle of everything

Why I crumbled to the ground, took my foot off the brake and rolled right into the wall

I never know when to put it in park

When it’s too soon to tell if I wanna stay

– An excerpt from a book I’ll never write

So Little Will Power and So Little Time

So, I am coming at you guys at 10pm on the Wednesday two weeks after I promised an every Wednesday schedule. School had just started back up and AP Physics is taking some serious energy out of me BUT I am here nonetheless for a little vegan update! It’s been a little over two weeks since I officially went vegan for what, the 7th time, and it’s been so EASY for me for some reason. Like, I forget that I’m vegan now so I just kinda go with the flow and it’s not a whole lot of effort outside of figuring out what I want for lunch that week or dinner than night. Everything in my house is either Vegan or Paleo, so basically I can eat anything that isn’t a boiled egg or a chicken breast, which is really convenient. I also don’t miss any cheese or anything like I usually do because I know it’ll make me sick and I feel so much better without eating junk like that. I still eat sugar in stuff, but I have been trying to limit that or use coconut sugar in place. I am also a lot more ingredient-conscious and I try my best to stay away from anything with a ton of crap in it or a lot of chemicals. I have been photo-logging my body progress and I can already tell that I have come a little way even just in 10 or 12 days which is fantastic. Once I get into months, I’ll try and post some pictures of that progress. I have a recipe post in my drafts that I will be posting soon, and I am trying out 2 new recipes for my birthday next Thursday, so expect those soon! I also discovered that somehow Wednesdays are always super busy even though I get out of school early SO I will be moving my days to Saturday! I am going to try and post my Seven Layer Dip this upcoming Saturday and then go from there. I hope you guys will work with me with my humble beginnings and stick around to see it get organized. Watch for a post in the next few days – peace out dudes.

#GoVegan2017

Long time no see, friends. My vegan journey begins once again in the new year. I know what most people are thinking, “oh god, here she goes again”. BUT HEAR ME OUT: I have not only cleaned out my pantry (along with my parents who are going back on the Whole30 diet), but I have got my thinking on the right path again. I have finally changed my mindset from myself to the animals. In the past, I have gone vegan with all the right intentions but failed after 2 months or 2 weeks because I would say to myself – “I want cheese” or “I want this pizza”. This was the total wrong way to go about things. It’s not me who really matters (which sounds bad), but it’s the countless animals who are affected by my negligence and poor choice to continue to eat dairy and eggs. Just because it tastes good doesn’t mean I should eat it, doesn’t mean I should put myself first. I could always put the fact that I was eating something with milk or eggs in it out of my mind because I hadn’t had just plain eggs or a glass of milk in years. It wasn’t until I was eating a Hershey’s bar sometime before Christmas that I realized what I was doing. The brown wrapper had a little circle on one of the corners reading “Made with REAL cow’s milk” with a happy picture of a cow on it. I kind of did one of those double checks because I wasn’t sure what I had just read. It never really connected in my brain that I was still indirectly putting dairy into my body even if I didn’t explicitly drink a glass of milk. I know that makes me sound really stupid, but something clicked that day, and I knew I had to change.

So, starting officially yesterday – January 2, 2017 – I am Vegan for GOOD. I have an accountability partner (one of my lovely friends @zionsmithh on twitter, check her out) and I have a plan. To keep myself in check and sharing my story, I have decided to really keep up with my blog and post weekly. Beginning Wednesday, January 11, I will post updates, recipes, reviews, stories, events or videos that I find every Wednesday. Hopefully everyone will enjoy my posts and they will be helpful to those trying this journey with me. In addition to my weekly posts, I will do my regular writing and photography posts as well on my random days. So, I encourage everyone to #GoVegan2017. Wish me luck!!!

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The Illustrated Man: A Continuation

“The Illustrated Man” by Rad Bradbury, a continuation of the prologue written by yours truly for a Graphic Design/Advanced Composition project, enjoy 🙂

The first Illustration quivered and came to life, swaying as if the wind itself could move the ink. Swirls of orange and yellow peeked out above the dizzy of black clouds. A girl emerged from the emptiness, warm brown hands sprouting from tree bark, half of her thick, red hair cascading down tanned shoulders and the other half piled high on top of her head, sad eyes like drops of water and hands carved out of leaves. She had jewelry like vines and clothes weaved from pieces of tender fruit. She peeked her head above the water she knew so well, fish circling her like a necklace, salty water dripping down her smooth skin. The fire behind her illuminated her gentle curves and lit up the sky, sparks sprinkling down and hitting her ocean like rain. She ducked under the water and swam up to the pier, gripping the rotting wood with small hands. The night was ablaze, red hot with anger. She leapt up onto the pier, shaking off tangled seaweed from her legs as she ran alongside her winged brother who owned the skies that had been destroyed just as her oceans had. Water spilled out of her open mouth, leaving salty residue on her teeth and tongue. As she ran, or more accurately stumbled, she spit up more, grains of gritty salt and kicked-up dirt finally taking its toll on her small frame and young lungs. Mother Nature couldn’t protect her own kin from the dirty air and splitting ground. The girl tripped, brown smudges dirtying her golden skin, hair twisted into unfixable knots, and eyes as full of water as her ocean. Laid out on the dark ground, fire closing in on her already fiery hair. Mother Nature tried to apologize, but she only shook the Earth more. Her daughter’s soft features were hardened, water droplet eyes closed in fear, and tree bark hands red with blood. Mad laughter escaped from the Earth, the noise echoing off her seven seas and the reverb crushing the girl under its weight. Father Time took a hold of the ocean and the sky, fighting against his clock to escape the sand in his timer and the sand being kicked up from a dying Earth. There is only so much time to run away before you reach the edge of the sky, before the ocean becomes too deep, before Mother Nature loses hope for a better tomorrow. This is the first day of The End. The Earth finally fought back, and not even she was ready.